"I MAY NOT BE PERFECT"

Half way down the blog on the side there is a yellow card. "I may not be perfect but, at least I'm not fake!" I embrace that saying and I live it! I own my mistakes and my failures. They made me who I am. I've been accused of being too honest by my son. That's something I take as a compliment. When you say what you mean and mean what you say, it's liberating. For too many years I didn't have the confidence to speak up for myself. I suppressed a lot of feelings. I only hurt myself. These days, I speak my mind and I don't care who likes it or not. I lose no sleep at night. Giving yourself childish nicknames, lying about yourself on dating sites, covering up your past with a name change, etc...What does that bring you in the end? Nothing real or long lasting. I am so ready to meet someone and build a relationship. Unlike other people, I am honest to a fault. Because I believe someone who can't or won't accept the whole honest package of me doesn't deserve even a sampling of the woman that I am. Strong, honest, loving, beautiful, loyal, respectful, fun, positive, and REAL! Until next time, take care of and love yourself!

Edit 5/14/16** You have no kids Bill! Remember? Your secret vasectomy took care of that. Stop claiming MY son! You think MY son is going to back you up when your girlfriend wants to meet him and his family? MY son! MY granddaughters! You lost all rights in the divorce! You were a stepfather. It's over now! Go to "church" and pray about it! Hahaha You've found religion?! That's rich! How often did I hear you put religion down over the years? "Religion is a fairytale for weak minded people" Too much to count accurately! Suddenly you've had an epiphany?! Fraud!

"THINK WITH OUR HEADS NOT OUR HEARTS"

I believe I have always had a tendency to think with my emotions and my heart. These days, after a lot of personal experience and growth, I think with my head and logic. Occasionally when my heart tries to mourn what should have been, my head and logic keeps me grounded in reality. I know 100% that William Seamus McDonald will never ever change. I've seen proof of that on his dating profile. Reading it brought an instant reaction of pity and gratitude. Pity that he has learned nothing. Full of lies. It is the same old, same old. Gratitude that I not only escaped but, have grown and changed. As women in toxic relationships we may think/hope that we can change things. That we can fix what's wrong. Thoughts along these lines will only hurt us and hold us back. We can't fix broken or someone who doesn't want or desire change. We have absolutely no control over anyone but, ourselves! There is hope for ourselves! All it requires is strength, courage, and determination. The very first step is under our control. We must decide once and for all that, there is no reset button. Every one deserves to be valued and loved. Lately I've been thinking I'm ready to meet someone. I've also realized this time there are specific personality traits required. If I don't meet the right person, I won't settle!

"THE BIGGEST LAUGH"

The other night I was looking through the matches my dating app had suggested. I came across your picture. I laughed and laughed! Out of curiosity, I looked at your profile. I found the same old tired bullshit! How sad that you haven't had any kind of wake up to reality. Good luck in your search. I really mean that. The fact is you will spend your life searching for something that simply doesn't exist. I put up with you way longer than any woman in her right mind would. Once upon a time I loved you with all I had. Then the years of being put down, called names, feeling no validation or respect from you took hold and turned me into a depressed, anxious, raging bitch. I wish you well but, the truth is, you already had the best you ever will. You had no appreciation or gratefulness. Empty people can never be filled. Not in a meaningful way! I'm so sorry for you. Good luck though. :(